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thetardisgames:

coffeeandcheesecake:

#he’s just so tired and so old #imagine saving the world everyday and once your done your still not happy #he’s saved so many but he always thinks of those he’s lost #he always puts himself down #he always tells himself that he does more harm than good #he’s the doctor #he saves lives but he also loses so much #he hates himself #yet he puts on this act of confidence to make people see he’s not giving up #the one true thing he always has is hope #even when everyone thinks all is lost #there’s the doctor #saying ‘no we haven’t lost’ and ‘no we can always find a way out’ #even when he knows not everyone will #doctor who

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME

And that, my friends, is why this will always be my most favourite television show. Because, to the untrained eye, it’s simply just an alien trouncing through time and space having a laugh with mates and fighting other aliens.

But the aspect of the show that I love by far is the subtext, the metaphysical aspect of the show. Because it isn’t simply just an alien trouncing through time and space having a laugh with mates and fighting other aliens. It’s an alien who has seen his entire race fall to its knees and had to destroy them to save the rest of time and space but it meant he was on his one. He trounces through time and space to get away from the things he has done in his past, horrible things, things we could never comprehend. He may have a laugh with his mates, but it never lasts long. Because, as the Tenth Doctor said, it’s the curse of the time lords, you can’t just watch the ones you love grow old and die, that hurts more than seeing them taken away before their time. And he’s not just fighting other aliens, he’s countlessly saving people every day for no reason other than for him to not hate himself as much as he does. But sometimes when you save somebody, you end up having to let somebody else die. And that’s the part of his life that he can never truly face without hating himself even more.